i cant give up now.
6 years.
i dont think it should stop now.
dont give up now joon. dont .
till the very last game ends .
till i feel ive given all my best .
till then ,
i wont give up .
its so hard,
seeing myself deprove almost everytime ,
i really dont know whats the problem with me.
knowing i can do it ,
but just seeing all my bad points in one thought ,
just makes me want to give up so badly.
everyone is climbing up the hill .
i m sliding down when i ve only reached the halfway point .
i dont wanna die ,sliding down till i reach the ground. not literally .
this is so not the way it is supposed to be .
where has all the good thoughts go .
since 6years ago ,
it has already been like .80% of my life.
i cant say i love it ,
but i cant say i dislike it either .
it has already been a part of me.
confidence was the thing i gained and lost again , and again,
and again, since idk when .
i think i can get it back .
i hope i wont lose it ever again ,
i wish it stays forever.